By a California Mom
My 25-year Moms in Prayer journey for our son David began when he was a third-grader. We named him David King (my maiden name) in the hopes that he would grow to be a “man after God’s own heart.” Little did I know the price that would be paid to see that desire come to fruition. How grateful I am for my God who sustained me with His grace to never give up praying or believing and for the many faithful Moms in Prayer women who came alongside me through those years.
David accepted Jesus as his Savior at the age of five. God gave him a love for His Word, which we studied together every morning before school. At night I read the Bible to him, line by line, from cover to cover. He loved going to church and to youth group. In middle school, he made the choice to be baptized. I was feeling quite secure in his relationship with Jesus, sensing that I was doing all the “right things” to preserve it. But, God taught me that that in itself was false security, springing from pride. His relationship with Jesus is secured by God, not me, as Paul says in 2 Timothy1:12b, I know whom I have believed and I am convinced that He is able to guard what I have entrusted to Him until that day.
How that verse sustained me as David entered his senior year in high school. It happened one afternoon as I heard a new friend of his leaving a message on the answering machine. It was not so much the words, but more the tone, the feeling it gave me that this was someone I didn’t want my son hanging with. This was only one of the group that would initiate my Christian son into the ways of the world including smoking, drugs, drinking parties, premarital sex as well as the consequences of such behavior. My heart was breaking as I cried out to God in my private prayers and with the Moms in Prayer prodigal group.
How could God allow this when I had trained my son so carefully in the way he should go? As I cried out to God for answers, He shored up my weak emotions with the rock of His Word. Do not remember the sins of David’s youth and his rebellious ways; according to Your love remember him, for You, Lord, are good. Psalm 25:7. Paul’s words in Galatians 1:15b-16a When it pleased God ……to reveal His Son in me sparked a new question, “Why did You wait so long, God, to reveal Your Son in Paul? Why did You let him kill so many Christians before You revealed Your Son in him?” The answer was not audible, but rather an impression. Because of all the things Paul did before his conversion, he was so thoroughly repentant that he was willing to do whatever God ordained for the spread of the gospel!
That became the context of my new prayers. “God, I pray that when David returns to You, he will be so thoroughly repentant for the ways that he has strayed from You that he will be willing to do whatever You ask of him. As diligent as he is now in playing video games and pursuing self-interests, make him that eager and zealous to study Your Word and to know Your ways. A prayer partner renewed my hope about this as she reminded me of the message of the potter in Jeremiah 18, But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands; so the potter formed it into another pot, shaping it as it seemed best to him. God had begun the work of shaping my son for His purposes, but David became marred in His hands. Thankfully, our God doesn’t throw away such pots, but instead He would re-make my son into a vessel pleasing to Him.
God spoke personally to my heart about what He intended for Dav
id. It was at a large prayer gathering in our stadium in San Diego. I had lost a cheap earring, but one that was special to me because my younger son had bought the set for me with his spending money when he was only four. I had shared my loss with the friends I came with and showed them the other earring. What were the chances of finding such a small item in that huge stadium? I was at the front of the stadium receiving prayer from a team for my lost son, David, when my friend presented me with my earring that she found all the way out in the parking lot. At that moment, the Lord shared these words with me, “If I care this much about your lost earring, how much more do you think I care about your lost son?”
God answered my prayers. David is walking with the Lord. When I asked what caused his return, David said that there were many things, but what impacted him the most was when he heard the testimony of an elderly man of God testify that before he became a believer he said, “if I ever become a Christian, I want to be a real one.” That opened David’s eyes to the life he was called to live in Christ.
When I sent this testimony to David to get his permission to submit it to Moms in Prayer, this was his written response. “I approve. I think you have a different take on repentance than I do though. I understand your example with Paul but I think his drive in life was God’s great love and goodness and the hunger to have more of God in his life. That’s my take and that is also my drive for more of God in my life and a closer relationship to the point of what Adam had walking together in the garden. Repentance is important but once it’s done, that sin is gone from the mind and no longer a part of who I am. There are two emotions in life: love and fear. Sin is fear and I try to operate in love at all times and fear nothing, putting all my trust in God. That is my life’s goal.”
From those words I sense that my son is becoming a man after God’s own heart.