They Prayed Me Out Of Hell

By Hanaleigh Hazel, age 23
(A Product of Moms in Prayer)

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I was born into a Christian family and raised with good Christian morals. When I was ten years old, I accepted Jesus into my heart and was baptized. I attended a private Christian school until the 9th grade. Even though I knew Jesus, I was just going through the motions. When I was 17 years old, I got mixed up with the wrong crowd and started running from God.  I was fascinated by the crowd’s dark clothes, piercings, chains, spikes, and studs. I moved out of my loving parents’ home and moved in with the guy I was dating at the time. He was very verbally and emotionally abusive to me.

There were many more after him who became physically and sexually abusive as well. At 18 years of age, I started smoking marijuana. I lived with several drug dealers, so my usage of the drug soon escalated to every day. I started burning Bibles and smoking marijuana out of the Bible paper. I wanted nothing to do with God. Somewhere around the age of 19, prescription pills crept into my life. A year later at the young age of 20, I started injecting methamphetamine into my veins daily. I saw many things humans were not intended to see and did things humans were not intended to do.

Following the extreme addiction of the needle, I soon lost everything I had to drugs. My car, my clothes, my friends, even my I.D. and birth certificate were taken from me by people I thought were my friends. I started selling drugs and living promiscuously with several meth dealers. Soon afterwards, many of my dealers got busted. I was so tired of my life of drugs, sex, and crime, but I could not quit. I felt like there was no way out!

May 22nd of 2013, I was going to commit suicide. I had with me a lethal dose of methamphetamine in a syringe. As I walked into the room to end my life, I tripped, dropping the syringe, and falling on my knees. I was so weak from not eating or sleeping for forty some odd days that I could not get up. I believe now it was an angel of the Lord holding me down. As I was on my knees, I remembered as a little girl seeing my mom lying down prone, flat, face on the floor, crying out to God in prayer. I thought to myself, “I’ve tried everything else, maybe I can try God.” I laid down, face to the ground, and really prayed for the first time in five years!

I prayed, “God, if You are there, please kill me…or do something.” I went to bed that night giving Him time to work. The next morning, I called my parents and asked them to come and get me. I wanted to come home. My parents were leaving on a road trip to Yellowstone National Park, and I went with them. I knew this was from God to get me away from the drugs and the dealers.

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Me and mom

I had a wonderful time just letting Jesus shower me with His grace and love! On our way back from the road trip, I knew I wasn’t ready to go back home. My grandmother mentioned a drug rehabilitation facility in Bowling Green, Kentucky named The Bridge To Recovery. They had an opening on the day we were going to be going through Kentucky on our way back home! My family took me there. I stayed for two months and learned a lot!

Now that I am home, I am better than ever! I attend church, Narcotics Anonymous meetings, and Celebrate Recovery meetings. On November 22, 2013, I celebrated six months clean! Several months later, I was re-baptized! I wear a Jesus ring on my ring finger, because Jesus is my fiancé now!  Now Jesus is real to me!

So, moms everywhere, don’t quit praying! My mom and her three other Moms in Prayer women – Sudie, Grace, and Judy – are the “angels” who prayed me out of Hell!

Below is the poem I wrote during my trip to Yellowstone National Park:

Bloodshed
I looked all around, and what did I see?
A whole lot of bloodshed coming from people different than me.
These people were hurt, having never been shown love,
And I was just as white and pure as a dove.
I thought I could help them, so I sacrificed me.
I became a dog like them, and acquired their fleas.
They took and they took, leaving me dry and barren.
I had nothing left, and none of them were carin’.
After everything was gone, they continued to proceed,
Leaving me helpless with not even the things that I need.
I took a second look around, and what did I see?
All the bloodshed I thought was theirs, had been coming from me!
I was broken, all my blood was gone, I was dry,
So I looked up to heaven, hit my knees, and began to cry.
“I have nothing to offer You, they  took all my fruit.
Everything You have given me, they took for their loot.
They took everything I owned, every single last token.
I have nothing to live for, I am totally broken.”
Then He looked down on me, and said, “My girl, you’re not dead.
For it is Mine, not yours, all you saw of that bloodshed.
Raise your head, My dear daughter, and do what is right.
And I will love and protect you with all of My Might.
Get away from those vultures, for you, I will restore.
You have come to Me humble, broken, and sore.
They will get what they deserve in a matter of time,
Because now, My love, you are finally Mine!”

Please leave Hanaleigh an encouraging prayer or comment!

Comments 62

  1. Update from Hanaleigh’s Dad 12-8-18. Please don’t give up!!! Hanaleigh is still doing well. She is a first year student at the Chattsnooga State Physical Therapy Assistant program. She made the cut of 22 students out of 400 applicants. Praise God & never stop praying & loving your prodigal. God is good.

    1. 05/31/2019….. Jimmy, thank you once again for sharing what God has done for and through your beautiful family. This is proof that we should never stop praying for our children because God is faithful to forgive and forget when we are covered by His blood. Harvey and I had 32+ wonderful years serving our Lord together before he got sick. It was only by the grace of God that he was able to endure 7 years of physical suffering. But he is now whole with no more pain, 2 good legs and I’m positive with a smile on his face as he worships in heaven.
      So happy for Hanaleigh that she listened to God and allowed Him first place back in her life. If I don’t meet up with you on this side of glory, we will have a grand ole reunion “over there” – after a few thousand years of sitting at Jesus’ feet first.

  2. Dear Hanaleigh and family, what an encouragement it was to read your testimony and all the amazing things that the Lord has done for you and in you, and continues to! I have a prodigal son who is in a dark place and wants no part of God or the people who love him. I try to look at the bigger picture and who’s operating behind the scenes (the devil) so as to not lose sight of my son (the real person who I love and who God loves) in order to stay focused (prayed up) and not feel helpless and hopeless. I know there is a real enemy at work in his life who is trying to destroy him and God’s plans for him. Reading your testimony and how God is working in you and all the lives you touch with the saving grace of Jesus is very powerful, very real and it gives hope to those who are hurting for their loved ones, but also for those who are stuck and suffering in their bondage of addiction and mental torment.
    Please remember all of us in your prayers.. Thank you and may God richly bless you today, tomorrow and always!

  3. I am a longtime friend of Hanaleigh’s parents. I was ill through much of Hanaleigh’s dark journey, her happy wedding and still am. But I kept up with what was going on with her through her parents and nothing made me happier and had me praising God more than hearing that she had come back to God for good and was happily married to a Godly man!! Thank You God for not giving up on us!!!

  4. Update from Hanaleigh’s Dad. Nearly 5 years clean. Still active in AA, Church & college. She & Kenny doing great. Still praying!!!

  5. An update from Hanaleigh’s dad.

    Hanaleigh is now married to Kenny for a year & they are both in college. They regularly attend church, volunteer as ushers & attend AA meeting.
    Praise God. 1-8-18

  6. Dearest Daughter of Christ,
    Isn’t God Good! Your testimony and your wonderful poem touched me deeply and reminded me to persevere in prayer! You have been down a dark path but I thank God and will continue to thank God when I remember your story of how God redeemed and is renewing what was once broken and lost! Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable.

  7. Today I am married to a very godly man who also was a prodigal. We’ve been married for 5 months. I’m back in school to be a PTA (physical therapy assistance). I also have completed a certification class and am an AEMT (advanced emergency medical technician). My husband and I are ushers at our church and are involved in a small group. God is good.

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      Hanaleigh,

      We are praising the Lord for His goodness and thanking Him for His continued blessing on you and your new husband! Thank you so much for this beautiful update. So many of us moms have been praying for you over the years. You continue to provide hope to moms who still have prodigals out there. Remain faithful and strong in the Lord. May your walk with Him be the joy of your life!

  8. I pray that God will continue to comfort you and restore all that was taken. With his help you can do anything. Just remember Nothing is impossible with God, through Christ all things are possible. He meets us right where we are. Trust him, with every set back or difficult day give it him. You are washed in the blood and you are forgiven.

  9. What an incredible story of redemption! In Isaiah it states that God's word will not return to Him void and you are a living example of this. Trust God, clean house and help others – One Day at a Time. Keep winning the battle. Love from your sister in Christ.

  10. HalleluYAH! God, You be praised and exalted for this story. You get the maximum glory, it is your doing. I am a mother who has 2 of my boys who were brought up in church, and are now living a life we did not teach them. I am praying with another mother, and these moms who prayed Hanaleigh out of this dungeon are an inspiration to me to keep on praying for my children. God will come in His own way, to restore all things lost in our children. Thankyou moms in prayer, you have inspired me to keep going that extra mile in prayer for my children. Vonnie

  11. Finally, brothers and sisters, rejoice! Strive for full restoration, encourage one another, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you. 2 Corinthians 13:11
    Thank you for sharing Hanaleigh. Your story is an encouragement to me:)

  12. Yay! Praise our God! And thank you, Fern, for the encouragement and vessel in which to pray for our own flesh and blood kids – Moms in Prayer. God has done so much for my kids, also, while one had a foot long mohawk, was into vulgar punk rock music, and drugs. Another was wrecking cars and almost died! Jesus has delivered them. So glad you shared your testimony with us, Hanaleigh 🙂

  13. God bless you Hanaleigh! I loved reading your story, God is so good! I am a MIP praying Mom of 3 children. My brother's story is similar to yours. We almost lost him a year ago, as he was shot by a "friend" in a drunken rage. He lost his wife and daughters due to his addictions. My Mom and I continue to pray for him to have an experience like yours, where he is brought to his knees and comes back to Jesus! Please continue to share your testimony. Take it on the road to Churches, on the streets and wherever the Lord may lead you. God bless you, Hanaleigh

  14. God bless you Hanaleigh…your testimony gave me courage to continue in prayer . As a chistian mother of 2 daughters 29 & 23 who do NOT want God in their lives it is impossible for them to keep away from trouble, addictions and so on…
    Your testimony gave me courage and I praise God for He is Faithfull !!
    Thank you Hanaleigh.

  15. What an amazing women you are!
    The strength and courage to share your story with others is God's great plan and purpose for your life.
    God promises that He can make ashes into beauty. You are living proof that His Word is true!
    God Bless You for bringing hope and encouraging others that our precious Father is faithful!

  16. Thank you for sharing your life on this post! I read this on line tonight when I was looking up worthy as my attribute, but it reminds me of your example. Only Jesus can turn…a mess to a message, a test into a testimony, a trial into a triumph, a victim into a victory. He is worthy to be praised!

  17. Thanks so much for pouring out your heart, Hanaleigh! God is SO faithful, SO loving and merciful to each one of us!!! Your powerful story reminds me of the song, "Devotion" by the Newsboys. I am praying that song and His hope for someone dear to me right now! Keep shining and sharing your story of hope!!!

  18. Oh this made me cry and gave me so much hope for my own four adult children who are walking on paths I never wanted them to walk on. I will keep on praying. With God there is always hope!

  19. Yes, you have gone before the many who will be traveling down that same path; only they will find a way of escape that has already been made through your testimony. I am a teacher that sees many hurting children daily, and my prayer is that I would recognize the need and encourage those whom God puts in my path– having a word in due season.

  20. Hannaleigh, I am so proud of you! I have spoken to your father often and have kept up with you. Some times we all have to be broken to see God's true Love. But know you know how much your parents do love you as well as your heavenly father. You are going in the right way and Praise the Lord! God Bless and my family will keep you in our prayers.

    Hammer

  21. Hannaleigh,
    Your life is a confirmation that nothing can separate you from the One who created you! I praise God that He loved you so much that He never gave up and thank God you have parents who prayed without ceasing. Your experience gives me hope for our daughter as she rejects God and embraces the world and what the world calls truth. I'll be praying for your continued growth in grace and love. May God bless you greatly!

  22. Your testimony is an amazing redemption story that can only bring glory to a God who does the unthinkable and the impossible. You have greatly encouraged me.

  23. Hannaleigh, you are a light shining brightly for the Lord Jesus in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation holding out to them the Word of Life. Thank you for letting your light so shine before us that we may see your good works and glorify our Father in heaven. He is letting you be poured out now for His glory but He is the One who now fills you with His oil of gladness and your cup overflows. Thank you for so eloquently sharing your testimony and giving us hope.

  24. Hannaleigh, Thanks for sharing your story!! It brought me to tears. I praise God that he rescued you and it gives me hope for my loved ones that are lost!!! It is a great reminder that my prayers do make a difference!!!

  25. Hannaleigh, thank you for sharing your story, that took tremendous courage. You are a beautiful, brave girl and I am praying for God to continue the good (great) work He has begun in you. May you grow in the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ.

  26. Hannaleigh! It's seems clear to me that God is going to use you in a mighty way beyond your testimony. The poem you wrote, while insired by the Holy Spirit, shows much gifting and promise in the written word. (I could almost hear a back beat and rhythms thumping to your words while I was reading it.) I continue to be so grateful for Moms in Prayer and the MANY lives that have been changed as a result of God answering our prayers, including my own. Keep the faith, little sister, and SHINE your light wherever He leads you!! :o)

  27. Praising God with you Hanaleigh, what an encouragement you are to moms who have laid flat on our face in prayer for ourselves and our children. Love you and thank you for sharing your journey!!!

  28. You are a miracle! Praise God! Thank you for sharing your story and for reminding Moms that nothing is impossible for Him!

  29. Hanaleigh! I am excited to see this message on this site. I know that it is just a step on the amazing path that God is taking you on! I am so glad that we met at the Cove. Press on! Philippians 3:13-14

  30. Thank you for sharing your journey Hanaleigh. There are mamas out there that need to hear hope. They need to hear that the Lord hears and answers prayer(s) for their prodigals. I don't know how long you've been blogging, but I want to encourage you to continue doing so. And I pray that God will use your story to reach MANY. God bless you sweetie.

  31. reading this brought me to tears. it is so amazing what God can do…He is so good! thank God for bringing you out of that darkness! your story will help others humble themselves, look up, and ask God for help! I just recently started a moms in prayer group, and i know there may be tough roads ahead but your story brings hope that a praying parent is so powerful.

  32. Hanaleigh – you just spoke to my heart words that I can see and feel for real with my own prodigal. I know God hears our prayers and I will never stop offering them up for my beloved son. God bless you and keep you Hanaleigh. It is for freedom that you have been set free! Praise the Lord!
    Hugs,
    Kelly

  33. Hanaleigh, thank you for your boldness & vulnerability to share with us. We rejoice with you, your family, your mom & the other moms that prayed for you. I will be praying for my prodigal son in our Moms in Touch group today. You encouraged me. I John 3:1a "How great is the love the Father has LAVISHED on Hannaleigh, that she should be called a child of God". God bless.

  34. Hanaleigh, you are very brave to share your last five years with us, and even braver to admit what a bad direction you took. God sees all and hears all, but loves all, too. We can't hide from Him, but we can try to ignore him. The truth is, none of us deserve any second chances, but it's through His Amazing Grace that we can feel loved, cherished, and forgiven. Praise God that you leaned on Him when you needed to most. Praise God you are being healed with the unshakable love of God, of your parents, and prayers from so many!!

  35. Hanaleigh, thank you for sharing. You have greatly encouraged me as I pray for my own son's wandering in darkness. The Lord will waste none of your sorrows. Walk with your head held high, precious daughter of the King.

  36. Hanaleigh,
    What a beautiful poem. May you continue to experience God's love, peace, and healing as you trust in Him. Thank you for sharing your story.

  37. Hanaleigh, what an awesome testimony. Stay strong in your journey and never forget where you have been and where you are now. The Lord has blessed you. Our son died from his addiction, please stay in prayer always and find a way that can inspire others. Your testimony alone will help others. Blessing.

    1. Thank you so much. I am truly sorry for your loss. Not all of us are blessed enough to keep out life. I was very close to death. when I came home I was 95lbs. My mom said when she saw me before I came home she went back and cried and said that if I wasn't delivered soon I was going to die. she was right but the Gracious King redeemed me.

  38. Hanaleigh,

    We rejoice with you over God's faithfullness! Cling to the cross. May you hear the Lord say " I have engraved Hanaleigh on the palms of my hands." Isaiah 49:16a

    1. Amen! Praise God!!! Bless you for sharing. God will restore what the locusts have destroyed. And boy, oh boy, does He have great and mighty things in store for you!

    2. What a miracle God has performed in your life. Keep leaning on Jesus and run to Him with every fear and pain. He has never left your side. I am so glad you shared your testimony. I know God will use it to encourage other people. He always does! He takes our brokenness and makes it beautiful. You are beautiful in HIs sight! I rejoice with you today at what God has done!

    3. I am a mother of three son and three stepcildren thank you for sharing and I know that God will use you in amazing ways to speak your truth and for others lifes to be touch good luck and God bless

  39. Praise God!! My daughter is 20 and is going down a similar road like yours. She was raised as a Christiian and attended l.a. private Christian school and college for a semester. She is involved with a young man without morals. She recently had an abortion, she has stolen money from us, and I believe she uses drugs. When confronted she denies she has a problem. She has until 11-14 to move from our home because of her behavior. She is lost in the world. I prsy every day that she will turn back to God but things seem to be getting worse. However,after reading your story, I realize GOD hears my prayers and hopefully before it is too late, my daughter will return to Jesus.

    1. Hanaleigh you truly are a blessing. I know God has great plans for you. Your journey has begun, be open to the leading of His Holy Spirit. God Bless you and your amazing family that never let go of their faith for a moment knowing God would restore.

    2. Hanaleigh, I have known you since you were a little girl clutching teddy bears. I have a Christmas card photo I favor with a teddy bear I dearly love. You were such a beautiful little girl then and still yet today. Please don't let anyone even YOU tell yourself otherwise!!! Praise God you came back to him to be rescued of that horrible lifestyle. Your testimony brought tears for your having gone thru unimaginable pain and tears of joy for God's mercy and saving grace. Always know that no matter how difficult your journey ahead you have the love of God and he will see you thru it. You are such an inspiration for so many regardless the oppositions to overcome. I have shared your story already to others because I feel God has big plans for one special young lady. I will be praying for you that you will continue to keep your heart open to follow him. God bless you and your precious family.

  40. Thanks for sharing. It's encouraging to me to read this- that prayer is answered – and a reminder that not always in our timing! Also a reminder that as a parent I can do many things right but we each have our own will and wants and ultimately each of us is left with God and a choice – so glad you choose God!

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