When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers, The moon and the stars, which You have ordained, What is man that You are mindful of him, And the son of man that You visit him? For You have made him a little lower than the angels, And You have crowned him with glory and honor. Psalm 8:3-5 (NKJV)
“It is like reading the story of my life,” he said. My son was spending another 30 days in jail for failure to appear on a misdemeanor charge and had found a book to read on the shelves there. He was over 2,000 miles away, so to know with certainty what was really happening in his life was impossible. But I sensed in my momma’s heart and gut that things were a lot worse than I suspected. So when I heard, “It’s like reading the story of my life.” I immediately downloaded the Kindle app as well as that book on Amazon.com and began to read so I could see what was really troubling my son.
My heart ached and my spirit groaned within me with every word I read. The characters in this story were tweakers, junkies, selling everything they had, even their very souls for their next fix. They were wanderers, liars, and hopelessly lost. They were blinded, they were cheated, and they were living in their cars until they sold them for some more heroin or methamphetamine. They were sick, they were lonely. They were overdosing, they were rehabbing, they were relapsing, and they were dying.
What was this momma to do from 2,000 miles away? But pray. Point him in the right direction and pray. And pray some more.
It is times like these when you thank the Lord for His foresight in putting you into a group of praying moms and preparing you for such a time as this. Our group had been praying together for seven years now, and this wasn’t the only time I needed them, but it was one of the most challenging of times. I had to battle the overwhelming fear and anguish that I would walk through as the parent of a heroin addict. And nothing could prepare me more than those hours of prayer spent with my Moms in Prayer group.
And so it was on April 21, 2010, when my days were the darkest, every thought nearly consumed with worry, and my heart nearly broken in two, that we prayed in one accord, “Lord, Heavenly Father & Creator, may Matthew consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place. May Matthew ask ‘who am I that you are mindful of me?’ Remind Matthew that you made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor. Psalm 8:3-5”
I wish I could tell you that it was an easy answer that came immediately, but it was not. There were interventions, glimpses of hope, many setbacks, and many frightening days and nights to endure. It would be four years before the Lord’s answer was fully realized, as my son surrendered his life to Christ, and would stand in answer to this prayer giving his testimony before a congregation in Portland, Oregon. And it was all in God’s perfect timing.
Facing homelessness once again, he entered Teen Challenge and during the sleepless nights of withdrawal, he turned to God in prayer. And in his own words, “I prayed, ‘God if you are real, please help me. I am done. I really don’t want to live anymore. Show me something please, I’ll give my heart to you, I will live for you.’ I had been mocking him for the past three years. I didn’t believe in God. I didn’t believe that any of that was real or that anything was offered to me. Or that I was worth anything.”
Teen Challenge Portland – thanking God for 4 months clean!
“On the fifth day I woke up. I felt this peace… and this joy. And this weight was gone from me. This heroin addiction was gone from me. And I thought, ‘Wow! What is this?’ That is the moment I knew that God personally touched me. He took this all away from me. Someone like me who I thought was worth nothing, and who had downplayed Him my whole life. And He cared that much and He loved me that much that He took it from me. He freed me from my past. He literally changed me in an instant. And it is a powerful amazing thing. His grace. And if he can do it for me, he can do it for anyone, because I really didn’t deserve it. “
Matt’s testimony can be heard in full here http://sandyassemblyofgod.sermon.tv/main/main/20038219
I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth. 3 John 4 (NIV)
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Kelly Ann Greer is a mom to five and a grandma to 11. She is a prayer warrior and testifies of God’s faithfulness to her and her family. When Kelly isn’t on her knees in prayer, meeting with her Moms in Prayer group (The Magnificent Seven), you can find her playing with her grand kids, pestering her husband, snorkeling in the Black River or learning to tell her story for God’s glory. God is faithful.